Saturday, January 31, 2004
I did something last night that I swore I would never do. I left a friend high and dry for a girl. While I now understand the other end of the spectrum and how it's easy to do something like that, I've made myself into a hypocrit. I am an ass, and I feel really bad about it. I wish I could go back and correct it.
Friday, January 30, 2004
I Did It
"you'd think this life would make me bolder
but I'm running scared is all..."
"well you got to think with a girl like that
any love at all, is better than nothing... is better than nothing"
- Matchbox Twenty - girl like that
"If it were up to me, she would know that
she'll be the one, when I'm dead, will use my bed
and she'll spend her life, thinking of us and making a fuss."
- Rooney - If It Were Up to Me
Yes, you read correctly, I DID IT! I asked her out. She came to Richmond this morning on business and we went out to breakfast, and then I rode along with her to one of her clients. When she dropped me off, I asked her. I'm pretty sure that it can't be misconstrued as anything other than what I meant it to be.
[Important excerpt from conversation]
Me: Y'know, I always have a great time with you.
Her: I have a lot of fun with you, too.
Me: I may be going out on a limb here, but I'd like to take you out sometime. [plain, simple, to the point, right?]
Her: That sounds great. Yeah, we'll go out sometime. [big smile]
[end of important dialogue... not direct quotes, general gist of conversation]
So there you have it. My heart is pounding, my pulse is racing, and I feel as if I'm out of breath. But I love it. If nothing else, this is a mountain I've climbed and conquered. Hopefully it'll be easier if I ever have to do it again.
Is this the end... or is it merely the beginning? I can't wait to find out!
but I'm running scared is all..."
"well you got to think with a girl like that
any love at all, is better than nothing... is better than nothing"
- Matchbox Twenty - girl like that
"If it were up to me, she would know that
she'll be the one, when I'm dead, will use my bed
and she'll spend her life, thinking of us and making a fuss."
- Rooney - If It Were Up to Me
Yes, you read correctly, I DID IT! I asked her out. She came to Richmond this morning on business and we went out to breakfast, and then I rode along with her to one of her clients. When she dropped me off, I asked her. I'm pretty sure that it can't be misconstrued as anything other than what I meant it to be.
[Important excerpt from conversation]
Me: Y'know, I always have a great time with you.
Her: I have a lot of fun with you, too.
Me: I may be going out on a limb here, but I'd like to take you out sometime. [plain, simple, to the point, right?]
Her: That sounds great. Yeah, we'll go out sometime. [big smile]
[end of important dialogue... not direct quotes, general gist of conversation]
So there you have it. My heart is pounding, my pulse is racing, and I feel as if I'm out of breath. But I love it. If nothing else, this is a mountain I've climbed and conquered. Hopefully it'll be easier if I ever have to do it again.
Is this the end... or is it merely the beginning? I can't wait to find out!
Fight the "machine"
Telemarketers Start Transmitting Caller ID Information
Starting today, if you have Caller ID, you'll know when a telemarketer calls you. Telemarketers must transmit Caller ID information in order to comply with the Federal Trade Commission's Telemarketing Sales Rule (TSR). Prior to the new requirements, most calls showed up on your Caller ID as "out of area." Now the name of the company or firm calling must be displayed along with their phone number.
Full Story
Starting today, if you have Caller ID, you'll know when a telemarketer calls you. Telemarketers must transmit Caller ID information in order to comply with the Federal Trade Commission's Telemarketing Sales Rule (TSR). Prior to the new requirements, most calls showed up on your Caller ID as "out of area." Now the name of the company or firm calling must be displayed along with their phone number.
Full Story
Moment of truth... the final countdown
Alright, to all of those who have been reading my blog for the past month or so... it all comes down to tomorrow. My big goofy grin days will either be numerous and plentiful or be snuffed out like a candle in a huricane. I'm going to have lunch with her tomorrow. I've been given a lot of good advice that I can and can't use. I've been encouraged by so many people, and it really makes me smile to think that people are rooting for me and cheering me on in a respect. I'll actually get one last psyche up tomorrow if I need it... and I probably will.
In approximately 11 or 12 hours, I (along with everyone else) will finally find out if this waste of energy has been worth it or not.
I have a good feeling about tomorrow. No matter which way it goes. I'm actually looking forward to it. That hasn't happened before. Usually I've dreaded it, or been really nervous about it. I feel anxious, but not nervous.
Do you think I stand a chance? Feel free to give any kind of feedback on any part of this post.
Lord protect my heart.
In approximately 11 or 12 hours, I (along with everyone else) will finally find out if this waste of energy has been worth it or not.
I have a good feeling about tomorrow. No matter which way it goes. I'm actually looking forward to it. That hasn't happened before. Usually I've dreaded it, or been really nervous about it. I feel anxious, but not nervous.
Do you think I stand a chance? Feel free to give any kind of feedback on any part of this post.
Lord protect my heart.
Thursday, January 29, 2004
Statistical Analysis
Do the numbers...
In the past two months (November 29 - January 29) the following number of blogs have taken place:
Posts about any girl - 7
Posts about a girl I like - 25
Posts about friends - 15
Posts about an event - 6
Posts about a TV show/movie - 9
Posts about school/classes - 5
Posts about a job - 7
Posts about worries - 12
Posts with quotes - 4
Other posts - 13
Some posts counted as two things... and the news articles I didn't bother counting.
A very interesting couple of months. Thanks for everyone for all your advice, support, laughter, and patience. Especially for your friendship!
In the past two months (November 29 - January 29) the following number of blogs have taken place:
Posts about any girl - 7
Posts about a girl I like - 25
Posts about friends - 15
Posts about an event - 6
Posts about a TV show/movie - 9
Posts about school/classes - 5
Posts about a job - 7
Posts about worries - 12
Posts with quotes - 4
Other posts - 13
Some posts counted as two things... and the news articles I didn't bother counting.
A very interesting couple of months. Thanks for everyone for all your advice, support, laughter, and patience. Especially for your friendship!
Card Night
Another fun-filled card night... not as much alcohol this time for me. I took some pictures this time, though. Wish you were here.
Loyal Participants in Card Night - Group Shot
From Left to Right. In front: Rose and Josh Paugh; 2nd row: Scott, Angela;
back: Brian (roommate), Brandi, Katie, Dustin (roommate)
Not shown: Jason and Kathryn Bowles
NERTS! anyone?
Setting up for another hand.
Loyal Participants in Card Night - Group Shot
From Left to Right. In front: Rose and Josh Paugh; 2nd row: Scott, Angela;
back: Brian (roommate), Brandi, Katie, Dustin (roommate)
Not shown: Jason and Kathryn Bowles
NERTS! anyone?
Setting up for another hand.
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
Monday, January 26, 2004
Sunday, January 25, 2004
Quote of Note
In order to discover new lands, one must be willing to lose sight of the shore for a very long time.
- Anonymous
- Anonymous
Icey bliss
Well, due to an ice storm that passed through central Kentucky this morning, the show for today has been cancelled. The only thing I had planned to do today, and I can't do it. I'm only mildly dissappointed, more-so that I won't be heading into Lexington today than anything. Maybe the weather will lighten up a bit and I can get out for a little while this afternoon/evening. I don't mind staying at home, but I don't like to HAVE to stay at home. I like the freedom. But for now, I'll enjoy my time, and maybe continue rearranging my room a bit.
For anyone that's out and about, I hope they are able to make it to their destinations safely. I wouldn't want to lose anyone that's special to me.
For anyone that's out and about, I hope they are able to make it to their destinations safely. I wouldn't want to lose anyone that's special to me.
Saturday, January 24, 2004
20/20 Hind-sight
I did it. Not really though. I mustered the courage, my left nut dropped, and I called... and I got the voicemail. Never was I so dissappointed in my life. As an after thought, I should've gone ahead and asked via voice message, but nope... I didn't. On the bright side, it should only get easier.... right?
Moment of truth...
I think my left nut has formed, or I'm just tired of putting myself (and I'm sure all my friends to a degree) through hell. When I talk to her tomorrow, I'm going to lay it all out... see where I can go from here. Either way it turns out, I will do it. I'm not ashamed to say that I'm very nervous and may have a difficult time sleeping tonight. I know this kind of thing is old hat to many people (probably most people), but it's not to me.
I can't wait for tomorrow... and I'm dreading it.
I can't wait for tomorrow... and I'm dreading it.
Thursday, January 22, 2004
Update
Lord what have I done...
There's no fallout from the phone call last night. Either it was all really muddled or she's ignoring it. Either way, it makes me feel a little better.
There's no fallout from the phone call last night. Either it was all really muddled or she's ignoring it. Either way, it makes me feel a little better.
Lord what have I done...
Let me explain my last entry. My roommate's girlfriend (Katie) says the ability to ask someone of the opposite sex out lies totally in the left testicle. So for a couple days we've been joking (only partially, though) that I need to grow a left nut.
Fast forward to tonight.
My roommates and I generally have some random friends over on Wednesday nights for what we call "Card Night". In case you're way too simple-minded, card night is where we get together and (wait for it...) play cards and just get together and have a good time. Well, one of my roommates decides to do some drinking tonight, and since I haven't done so in a while, I figured what the heck.
Fast forward.
So around 10:00 (10:11pm to be exact) I decide to do my first ever drunk dial (not really drunk, but feeling good [two shots of Montezuma Tequila, and a Doc Otis later]). The person I decide to call was a certain someone that I'm interested in (No, it's not Patrick's mom)... Besides she had asked me to call her later if I got the chance, and as soon as her voice-mail picked up, I realized what time it was [note: she goes to bed fairly early, and turns her phone off when she goes to bed]. I was leaving a message and held the phone up to have everyone say, "HI [insert name here]" and my friend Rose said, "go out with Scott!". I ended the phone message and we all had a pretty big laugh, I was pretty impressed that she did it, and wasn't upset at all that she did. Thus, that is how Rose became my left nut.
Fast forward.
Talking with Rose a little bit later, she gave me a couple of tips about if or when she brings it up or asks about it. So that was good... but she basically said, "don't read into anything too much, and still you need to just ask her out"
Fast forward.
Now that everyone has gone and I've had a bit of quiet time to myself... I'm a little nervous. This big giant boulder that's just been sitting here and getting bigger has been getting increasingly more difficult to get moving... but I think that Rose put some TNT under it, and now it's got a little bit of momentum and all I need to do is give it that shove and see where it goes from there. It basically is really making me step up to the plate and get ready to throw myself in front of the bullet (too many analogies?). Well, one thing is, I'll know one way or the other, and if it's bad news, then I can get to feeling sorry for myself and get that part over. If it's the way I'd like it to go, then I can finally get on with enjoying my time with her even more.
Any advice? Comments? Snide remarks?
I'm really nervous.
Fast forward to tonight.
My roommates and I generally have some random friends over on Wednesday nights for what we call "Card Night". In case you're way too simple-minded, card night is where we get together and (wait for it...) play cards and just get together and have a good time. Well, one of my roommates decides to do some drinking tonight, and since I haven't done so in a while, I figured what the heck.
Fast forward.
So around 10:00 (10:11pm to be exact) I decide to do my first ever drunk dial (not really drunk, but feeling good [two shots of
Fast forward.
Talking with Rose a little bit later, she gave me a couple of tips about if or when she brings it up or asks about it. So that was good... but she basically said, "don't read into anything too much, and still you need to just ask her out"
Fast forward.
Now that everyone has gone and I've had a bit of quiet time to myself... I'm a little nervous. This big giant boulder that's just been sitting here and getting bigger has been getting increasingly more difficult to get moving... but I think that Rose put some TNT under it, and now it's got a little bit of momentum and all I need to do is give it that shove and see where it goes from there. It basically is really making me step up to the plate and get ready to throw myself in front of the bullet (too many analogies?). Well, one thing is, I'll know one way or the other, and if it's bad news, then I can get to feeling sorry for myself and get that part over. If it's the way I'd like it to go, then I can finally get on with enjoying my time with her even more.
Any advice? Comments? Snide remarks?
I'm really nervous.
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
My kingdom for a .... WHAT?!
I hate a particular 5% of who I am, How I am, and what I will and will not do.
As my roommate and his girlfriend put it... I need a left testicle.
As my roommate and his girlfriend put it... I need a left testicle.
The Big O
Cast in the name of God
Ye Not Guilty
One of my favorite anime titles right now is The Big O. I just bought it on DVD a couple days ago. Stupid Cartoon Network's [adult swim] got me hooked on it. The first season is really great... there's a lot of weirdness that goes on in the storyline and most of it is interconnected to make you want to try to figure out what's going on in the whole scheme of things.
Quick breakdown:
Takes place in a city called "Paradigm City". The city of amnesia. Approximately 40 years ago something happened to make everyone lose their memories. No one knows what happened. Bits and pieces surface every once in a while to give them glimpses of their past. Fortunately people remembered how to use electricity and machines and that sort.
ANYway, check it out, it's fun.
Ye Not Guilty
One of my favorite anime titles right now is The Big O. I just bought it on DVD a couple days ago. Stupid Cartoon Network's [adult swim] got me hooked on it. The first season is really great... there's a lot of weirdness that goes on in the storyline and most of it is interconnected to make you want to try to figure out what's going on in the whole scheme of things.
Quick breakdown:
Takes place in a city called "Paradigm City". The city of amnesia. Approximately 40 years ago something happened to make everyone lose their memories. No one knows what happened. Bits and pieces surface every once in a while to give them glimpses of their past. Fortunately people remembered how to use electricity and machines and that sort.
ANYway, check it out, it's fun.
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